My true love

Baby, I miss you, I can`t stand the distance. Lost in the crowd, when you`re not around. I want you, I need you, I`m longing to feel you boy. You`re always on my mind. 

This is a song I`ve been listening to lately and I absolutely mean the lyrics. It`s so hard to be away from the person you love. It`s actually one of the hardest things I`ve ever had to go through. Matthew brings so much love and joy into my life, that being away from him gives me a heartache. It kind of feels like I`m heartbroken, but that`s when I have to remind myself that I`m not. It just feels like it cause I miss him, but my heart is the opposite of broken, it`s in love. I found my one true love. Before I met Matthew, and every time I looked at the stars and saw a shooting star, I always made a wish, and the wish was always the same, to find that one person that match me in every way. I didn`t know if it was possible, and I didn`t know if I should believe it or not, but that`s what I always wished for, and I placed that wish in my heart and thied all I could to believe in it. Now it is not a dream anymore, it`s real, it came true. 

Me and Matthew communicate reaaally well (if not we couldnt have had a long distance relationsship). We understand eachother even without words. He makes me laugh, he touch my heart on a deep level with his honest romance. When we`re together I forget the world, he make me relax. His kisses makes my knees weak and his big warm hugs gives me comfort. He loves the Lord and make me feel safe, we share same values in life. He is dropping everything he knows in America to come be with me. Could I be more lucky? He is freaking hot, and all mine=). He is gifted in many ways. He puts other people before himself without even thinking twice, it comes natural because of his good heart. He is sensitive and still so strong. He is outgoing, he is smart, he is always positive and he loves life, he loves to learn and brings joy to people around him just because of his enthusiasm for life. He makes me smile, he makes my heart jump and he knows how to make me happy. He is what I need and always wanted, that I found him is a miracle to me.

It`s now been a little over 6 weeks since he left Norway, and it starts to feel like ages ago since I saw him. The first few weeks was the aching part. I was so sad that it was hard to focus on other things. But my man, he is one of the strongest persons I know. He is a fighter. He encouraged me and himself to thing positive when all you do is think negative. He helped me focus on the good things and to think good thought. Cause all day you can be negative and tell people about how awful and discouraging things is, but really you just end up discouraging people around you and mostly yourself, cause you tell yourself negative things over and over again. That doesn`t help you get anywhere in life. So how I managed to have good days after he left was to think good thoughts, be positive, and care about others then myself. Of coarse it is good to let it out on someone if you have a crappy day or you just need to complain for a little while, but it`s not helthy for a habbit. I am a lucky girl, with a wonderful boyfriend, with super great friends, with a wonderful family. I go to a good school to be educated, I have food everyday, I have a great apartment. I have a good life, I am lucky. Most of the days in practical work, I think about how I don`t manage anything, but shouldn`t I try to focus on what I DO manage when I`m there? When we meet challenges in life, like we will do all the time, we can`t sit down and be sad and wait for better days, cause life is full of challenges we have to deal with, and the question is how we choose to deal with it. We fight, we try to see the positive side of every situation, we try to think good thoughts and take one step at a time. At least that`s what I`m learning at the moment. Life is a challenge, we can choose the outcome.

After a few weeks, the aching started to go away, and I learned to accept the distance. It`s still hard, every day, but it`s okey, cause I have so many things to be happy about. Now I`m counting days for him to come back. 32 days is what my callender tells me, that`s exciting=). Love is a weird thing, it`s the one thing that make you loose control, it takes over. It controls my days and it controls me, cause I am head over heels for this guy, and without him I feel weak. But to know that he is in my life makes me strong. Love can bring pain, but love is absolutely wonderful, in fact it`s the best experience a human being can have, either from family, friends or spouse.

I love my Matthew, with all of my heart, now and forever. I can`t imagine a life without him, I`m crazy in love<3